So I'm on the way to the hospital it was such a haze, mom, dad, Ms. Gardner and I. I kissed the boys just like any other day.. off to school they went did they even know that mommy would have less breast when she returned.. tears at the thought. nobody really know how fast my heart is beating. I can hear it and feel every thump.. Anxiety attack her it comes... breath the counselor said. oh no it's late almost 8 am. ANXIETY attack!!!! breath get in the car...
Today it's cold, colder than ever. Is God as sad a me? It has been so much, too much to handle for one girl. I am almost 40, 39 and 10 months to be exact. Breast cancer.... God will never give you more than you can bear.
My cell phone keeps ringing, buzzzz a new text... I am praying for you, you know I would have been there but things are different.... stop reading this message I thought it is not positive ( take a deep breath) so I did!
